New Year

New year.

Refined goals.

Renewed motivation.

This past Monday, we were talking at small group about what brings us delight and rest and how that is present in our current seasons of life.

My response was simply that I'm trying to figure that out.

I have goals, just like most people.
   We gotta get out of debt.
     I desperately want to purge our belongings and simplify our home and schedules.
        There are books to read and recipes to try and projects to get done and the list goes on and on...

I know that I have to have time to find myself, to pursue my passions, to "fill up my cup..."

But, my time is VERY limited.

I am a young wife and mom.

So, the challenge is to figure out what that all looks like practically for me.

Currently, it looks like evaluating.
It looks like ruthlessly purging my life, schedule, habits, mindsets, etc.

If it isn't an absolute necessity or it doesn't contribute to my self or my family or my marriage, it has to go.

I have a lot of likes.
It's time to figure out what I love - and what is therefore worthy of my limited time and energy.

It's going to take some time to figure this all out.
And, I'm ok with that.
There's no rush.
There's no pressure.
There's no reason to compare myself to other moms.
There's no reason to stress out about other's expectations on me (whether legit or imagined).
I can show myself grace because I want to wait until I know for sure what to spend my limited time on.

I want to do things well or not at all.

Until I figure out what those things are, step 1 is to start focusing more inward.
Towards myself.
Towards my marriage.
Towards my family.

Mother Teresa said it best when she said, "If you want to change the world, go home and love your family."

Perhaps we all should take that advice to heart.
-kt